Monday, August 2, 2010

Just need to vent....

Wow! It's been 2 months since I've blogged :0( whew! Sorry about that....We've had a very busy, awesome, crazy summer!!!  So much to talk about...but I need to vent about one particular subject WORKING MOM!

Please do not get mad whoever reads this that I may work with or have worked with or about to work with...that's not the point, the point is that I'm just spilling my heart.....

On that note.....I go back to working FULL time this week, and I'm so SO heartbroken!  My heart is literally aching.....I have THOROUGHLY enjoyed being a part-time working mom for the past FIVE months.....it has been so rewarding to be there for my boys 2 days a week, and help them through the transition of moving.  I have bonded pretty strongly with them over the past few months, and it has just been wonderful.  But, I guess reality sets in, and we have to make ends meet, therefore, I have to work outside the home.  I know God will help me through this....it's just tough....I remember since Peyton was a little older than Brayden, he'd say "mommy please don't work" or "mommy stay with me" or "mommy don't go" and I know it's about to happen with Brayden too....and it hurts my heart so much!  I just wish this doesn't have to be the option, but it is for our family, and I'm behind it 100% because we're a family and that's what we do, we support each other.....and our decisions together.....but it does not take away from the emotions I'm feeling.....

Peyton does start school, August 11th, and I'm so excited for him, but please help me pray for him....this will be his 3rd DIFFERENT school in just one year!  I PRAY that he does an amazing job, and I PRAY that God will bring him the RIGHT group of friends to hang out with....My heart is heavy for my oldest child at the moment, but I know I KNOW He is in God's Hands, and that's what gives me some sort of PEACE!!!  We dedicated him when he was a baby to the LORD, and God will protect him.....and be there for him....I PRAY that his teacher is hopefully a Christian, and I know it's a secular school, so if she's not I PRAY that she is positive, and outgoing and upbeat, and is there for Peyton....

Peyton has also started FOOTBALL, YES I said football, and he's doing an AWESOME job! I'm so proud of him, his 1st game is the 1st weekend of September, but his practices have been every night but Wednesday night for 2 hours!  But he has done great keeping up and learning all the new drills!  He's a pro ;0)  Plus he has an awesome Daddy that helps him along the way....

And sweet Brayden! My goodness he is growing leaps and bounds!  I cannot believe I almost have a 1 1/2 year old!!!  He is everywhere, and I mean EVERYwhere!!! And just talking up a storm, some words I understand and some I just don't have a clue haha!  He is somewhat interested in potty training already but I'm not going to push it at ALL!  I can't go to Peyton's practices for long, because Brayden wants to be on the field with him and all the boys!  I promise you he thinks he's one of them!

I'm going to miss spending my 2 days off during the week with them....I'm going to miss just doing random things around the house, whether it's playing a board game with Peyton or chasing Brayden around the house....I will miss it so much!  I know I have the weekends with them and after I get home from work, but it's not the same.....

But, like I said, I support my husband and my decision a 100%!!!  Because I know we have to do this for our family.....Please pray for me as I'm starting this new job, I'm excited about working with one of youth leaders in our church and a mom of our teens in our youth group.  I'm excited about getting to know her company and how to do my new job.....

God is good....and so very faithful.....

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